Good session with Michelle today. Seems that whenever I most don’t want to go, that’s when I really benefit. This makes me want to go even when I don’t want to go. So, if I were being silly, I could say that when I want to go because I don’t want to go, that’s when I really benefit.
Funny thing is, during these “good” sessions, I often don’t remember much of what was actually said, just more the feeling of what went on. I know I cried a lot. And laughed a lot (nice little defensive mechanism there). And even laughed and cried at the same time which, apparently, was a good thing. OK, I can see why…
I’m practicing. Practicing with Michelle those ways of being that will, hopefully, make it easier for me to have better relationships with people. OK then.
She made an analogy between where I am in my life, and the glass shop in The Alchemist…my mom always said I was like a bull in a china shop, so in a way, I’ve been preparing for this all my life…
Profoundly sad…
Slow…
Chasing the unicorn. Flashes of white flank or golden horn.
